Reasons

For the past few weeks, I neglected my health.

I took sneaky bites of restricted foods. I stopped taking my blended herbal drinks. I lost focus. I came up with excuses like: “Oh there’s a birthday. It’s okay if I take a bit. No harm. We’re on vacation, it’s no biggie.” Within 2 weeks, we had 3 birthday celebrations. To be honest, when you’re on vacation to celebrate a special occasion, it’s super tempting not to eat the sumptuous foods, beckoning you to take a bite. I indulged in foods I wasn’t supposed to eat. I also didn’t sleep right. I barely slept 3-5 hours in those days, sleeping late and waking up early. I chose to enjoy the celebration (since it was my family’s birthday month) and prayed for Him to give me strength everyday. He did. We went home safe and sound, happy and relaxed.

Little did I know that only after a day, I would be rushed to the hospital (check my last post, Fourth in the Furnace)

Just yesterday, we attended a health forum.  I learned a lot — really, it made me realize a lot of things. It reminded to have discipline and to be committed in being healthy. No excuses.  It’s hard, yep, but it was doable, I knew that, because I had already done it. I’ve learned to congratulate myself on the little steps I take. Just this morning, I restarted my habit of healthy eating.

Another disturbing fact the doctor has made me realize that I am becoming a financial burden to my family for 10 months now. The finances that was supposed to be spent on our needs got used up for paying my hospital bills, checkups, laboratories and natural treatment supplements. Funds to accommodate our expenses gradually decreased. But I know, I trust Him, that this will just be for a while.

I was so ecstatic when I learned that there was a new possible naturopathic doctor that could help me. I felt as though it was the answer to my prayer. And though I did take something from that afternoon, I didn’t purchase anything because I was dismayed of the way they sold their products. My gut was telling me not to buy yet.

But just today, I realize why exactly we attended that forum. It was to remind me to start up my healthy eating habits, no excuses! I have to take care of myself again. To take charge of my health again. Whatever treatment program we get into, be it conventional or natural, true healing only comes from God. The doctors, the medicine, the supplements, even the blended herbs — they’re all just God’s instruments, Him working through those people, those herbs, to heal me.

God always has reasons for everything. He answers our prayers, though it may not come in the ways we expect it. But His plans? They always will be for our best, done in His perfect time. I still may be on my search for a new alternative treatment, but He didn’t allow me to go astray in my unhealthy habits. He has set my path straight once more. This may just be a small step in my healing journey, and there may be bumps along the way. But I believe, my healing will come. In His perfect way. In His perfect time.

Be blessed,

Alpha

October 24, 2018